Dear Amber...

Hell-o :D
So this post will be all bout friends and hard times.. i bet all of you have those once in life. right..
But first I start with my ..  best friend.. or she was my best friend.. and surly you ask why was?.. heres the story (i try to put that t in happy mode :D). ok here it goes


 THE STORY *sparkly music*
My best friends name was Amber. She was year older then me, but the birthday was on same day 24 of April. She was pretty and really outgoing. She loved animals and had abour 15 pets or smething like taht. Not sure.. 6 dogs, 6 cats, 3 horses, 2 spiders, snake.. ect. Like alot. I met her near my home when I was little. Around 10-sh. In college she studied Art and Disaining. She was good drawer and made really cute tattoos what were really good. She was depressed personm but didn't show off. I think she even was suicidle  SO here's She.. 
But WAS story part.. so it was about umm.. ending of October 2012 I think it was 20th.. She was in fight with a drugdealer. Cause her friend was drug addic and wanted his dose but was drunk and she got stabbed on the fight.. she went to doctor to get it all cleaned and stuff. on 31th of october (HALLOWEEN!!!!!) she fainted in college and got taken to hospital. Doctors said that she won't get out yet the will do tests and stuff.. On 1st november she called to me to say that Mitch (Rock In Peace) is passed away (sadish times..). on 2nd I went to Finnland. She Called to me on 4th of November before I got on boat to get back home and she said:" yes I'm fine. yesterday I felt weak that's why I didn't call but now I'm alt better and I'll get out tomorrow or day after tomorrow." 
I got on boat and got back to Estoani and then I got call from that Ambers friend and he said: " Dude i'm really sorry but Amber passed away about a hour." i was shocked. I didn't wanna belive that (taht's all normal) i didn't belive that till my other friend called and invited me to her funural. I didn't go cause i was too depressed and sad. 
Her funural: Her body was burnt like she wanted and burried on her back yard. on top of her ashes was buried a willw tree. It was her favorite and she still lives on there. I hope her sole is happy with that :)

Now the hard time. It's always hard to let go a person who is liek sister to you. but I'm really greatful to my old dorm mates who helped me throw that and made me smile. those are real friends. and if you need to talk with someone. You can talk with me. and i'll do my best to help you ut with your problem and stuff. I know i'm not gd with that but i try :D


i think that's all soo s HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY AMBER (even thow you won't get 20 this year) forever young!!!

R.I.P Mitchell Adam Lucker

Last night i heard really sad news.. And i couln't sleep all night cause of it :

Suicide Silence frontman Mitch Lucker died Thursday morning after succumbing to injuries from a motorcycle collision on Halloween night. The 28-year-old musician lost control of his motorcycle and crashed into a light pole in Huntington Beach at around 8:55 p.m., said police to Newport Beach Patch. The collision threw him from the bike, and the motorcycle kept sliding down the street until it struck a pickup truck. Lucker was taken to UCI Medical Center, where he died the next morning at 6:17 a.m.

I still can't belive that he'e cone. He was so talented. I mostly feel sorry for her daughter Kanadee (5 years old). Shes one brave girl. 
Like he sung You Only Live Once SO JUST GO FUCKING NUTS.. that was the 1st song i heard from them and liked after that came 1st cd.. then 2nd.. and for the end i have all the albums in my ipod for a long time.. Some time is good to listen them and rock out in class :D.. But i think iäm going to cry every time i listen theyr songs.. I thing i'll rock with tears then.

Kanadee.. One Brave Girl

I just don't have any words... Why so young, talented Genius.. why not Justin Bieber, Rebecca Balck or Hot Probles or what ever they are called.. I just dont understand.. so I guess I'll just go and listen some music and pack my bags... Bye :)