Dear Amber...

Hell-o :D
So this post will be all bout friends and hard times.. i bet all of you have those once in life. right..
But first I start with my ..  best friend.. or she was my best friend.. and surly you ask why was?.. heres the story (i try to put that t in happy mode :D). ok here it goes


 THE STORY *sparkly music*
My best friends name was Amber. She was year older then me, but the birthday was on same day 24 of April. She was pretty and really outgoing. She loved animals and had abour 15 pets or smething like taht. Not sure.. 6 dogs, 6 cats, 3 horses, 2 spiders, snake.. ect. Like alot. I met her near my home when I was little. Around 10-sh. In college she studied Art and Disaining. She was good drawer and made really cute tattoos what were really good. She was depressed personm but didn't show off. I think she even was suicidle  SO here's She.. 
But WAS story part.. so it was about umm.. ending of October 2012 I think it was 20th.. She was in fight with a drugdealer. Cause her friend was drug addic and wanted his dose but was drunk and she got stabbed on the fight.. she went to doctor to get it all cleaned and stuff. on 31th of october (HALLOWEEN!!!!!) she fainted in college and got taken to hospital. Doctors said that she won't get out yet the will do tests and stuff.. On 1st november she called to me to say that Mitch (Rock In Peace) is passed away (sadish times..). on 2nd I went to Finnland. She Called to me on 4th of November before I got on boat to get back home and she said:" yes I'm fine. yesterday I felt weak that's why I didn't call but now I'm alt better and I'll get out tomorrow or day after tomorrow." 
I got on boat and got back to Estoani and then I got call from that Ambers friend and he said: " Dude i'm really sorry but Amber passed away about a hour." i was shocked. I didn't wanna belive that (taht's all normal) i didn't belive that till my other friend called and invited me to her funural. I didn't go cause i was too depressed and sad. 
Her funural: Her body was burnt like she wanted and burried on her back yard. on top of her ashes was buried a willw tree. It was her favorite and she still lives on there. I hope her sole is happy with that :)

Now the hard time. It's always hard to let go a person who is liek sister to you. but I'm really greatful to my old dorm mates who helped me throw that and made me smile. those are real friends. and if you need to talk with someone. You can talk with me. and i'll do my best to help you ut with your problem and stuff. I know i'm not gd with that but i try :D


i think that's all soo s HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY AMBER (even thow you won't get 20 this year) forever young!!!